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Hidden Pain
Jennifer Cobb
I look into the mirror,
look deep in my eyes
I look for my soul behind all the lies
The life that I’m living is not my own
my soul is trapped, and I feel so alone
I keep staring and what I see
Is a stranger, its not me
It would be hard for me, to make you understand
That I feel that I should be six feet underground
I put on a front so people see
That the way i look doesn’t effect me
To other people they see this shell
So I put on a front so things look well
But deep inside I hate who I am
And I hate myself that much I dont give a damn
But I do go to sleep with tears in my eyes
Because I know when I wake up I have to live with more lies
I’m taking tablets to help with my pain
And I do feel a little better, but its not the same
My mind has changed from being depressed
But everyone see’s me as male and this makes me stressed
My body is changing day by day
People won’t see me as any other way
My heart is screaming, my heart wants to shout
I am female, but this shell wont let me out……
I live in Birmingham, it the heart of hate
It is very hard to be true to my state
I tried it once and I got beat down
I was in a puddle of blood on the ground
It wasn’t that bad I had a hit to my head
For that couple of seconds I honestly thought I was dead
I need to be female because it is killing me inside
Because my heart keeps screaming out, but this shell wont die. |
